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[03 Sep 2007|01:05pm] Some people really do have shit for brains. Ha. &$%*@!

[08 Aug 2007|12:58am] x riSsy o8:  ur going to college x riSsy o8:  and leaving me x riSsy o8:  im upset here ohworditscoleen: haha aw ohworditscoleen: I'm not leavingg ohworditscoleen: I will be temporarily gone for about six hours every day x riSsy o8:  oh YEAH x riSsy o8:  cause u stayed here for a BOY  So true. I am a fool. 5 &$%*@!

[01 Aug 2007|12:52am] What the fuck am I doing to myself? &$%*@!

[04 Jul 2007|03:11pm] Seven years later. Same bullshit, different time. Unbelieveable. 4 &$%*@!

[29 Jun 2007|12:59am] I really wish you'd listen to the things I try tell you. Things could be so much better if you'd just take a second and listen. 2 &$%*@!

[11 Apr 2007|01:06am] Thankyou so much for making me not feel bad about this. Your constant displays of immaturity and all around douchebag behavior have made this entire thing very easy for me to do. I'm really happy with my life right now..but I bet you can't say the same, can you? Enjoy being the miserable, insecure human being you will probably spend most of your adult life being. I don't feel bad anymore. You can make all the catty remarks, instigate as much drama, and try to make my life as uncomfortable as possible.. I don't care. I WON, YOU LOST. Just remember that. 6 &$%*@!

[02 Mar 2007|09:41pm] I like you less and less with each day.

[20 Feb 2007|12:21pm] All I seem to be doing is fucking up everything lately, so today I'm taking a step to change that. Unless you're one of the following things/people, don't expect any attention from me any time soon. +My classes +My family +Looney Tunes +Meagan, Kristine, and Erin +CUNY Baruch +My tread mill +Gerard, Salvatore, etc etc Anddddd that's pretty much it.  Peace out kids. &$%*@!

[02 Feb 2007|04:23pm] I GOT INTO MY FIRST CHOICE SCHOOL. Yep so I'm going to Baruch.  I have to go on the 28th of this month for placement testing. It's really starting to hit me that I'm not going to be in high school after this year. I'm soooo happy right now. 1 &$%*@!

[30 Jan 2007|10:05pm] Things aren't  going according to plan, but for once I'm ok with that. I'm so happy with life right now. I have a family who I love, the best friends I could ask for, more opportunities than I could ever hope for and the job I've wanted since I was probably ten years old. To me, it doesn't get much better than that. The past few months, I've just been really stressed about things, and I'm just done. I'm sick of getting worked up over things I can't control. To the half a dozen or so people I spend nearly all of my free time with, I love you all to death. To everyone I always say I'm going to make time for but never do, I'm sorry for being a bad friend. Really, I am. I'm terrible when it comes to organizing my time, and you deserve better than to be blown off time and time again . And to those of you who I don't even recognize anymore, go fuck yourselves. I feel in no way responsible for any distance created between us. This is all on you no matter which way I look at it. It amazes me how much people can change, and can't really lie to myself that you're the same anymore. And hey, maybe that makes me closeminded. Whatever. Either way.. Goodbye and goodluck with everything, I officially give up on you. With that said, I'm going to get some sleep. I have a feeling tomorrow is going to be a good day, and I sure as hell don't want to be tired for a single second of it. 3 &$%*@!

[10 Jan 2007|11:21pm] OH and ps, getting suspended from your job at the age of twenty-seven for going on MYSPACE is just sad. When are things going to change? When are you going to grow up? I hope this is a fucking wakeup call. &$%*@!

[10 Jan 2007|10:29pm] I've felt more unwanted in these past few months, than I have in my whole life. I don't know when, or even why things have changed but I really miss everyone a whole lot. I wish I knew how to get everything back to the way it was atleast alittle. &$%*@!

[09 Dec 2006|11:56pm] I am so exhausted with life right now. I work too much. I don't sleep enough. I've lost touch with a lot of people I care about, and I miss them a lot. I sleep a lot more in school and I feel like a slacker. My grades are still the same, I just feel as if I do considerably less now. Jimmy is going into the hospital this week for his surgery. I'm trying not to think about it, but when it comes down to it, I'm really worried. It's fucking freezing out. I strongly dislike it. I've come to a lot of conclusions lately. I've decided there are some people in my life who take me for granted, and I'm not going to go out of my way to have relationships said people anymore. It really bothers me how some people are with me, and they need to learn how to be better friends or not be around me anymore at all. My christmas tree is up and it's improving my mood alittle. I need to stop rambling and go to sleep. goodnight. 1 &$%*@!

[30 Nov 2006|03:24pm] This is not how I wanted things to be. &$%*@!

[07 Nov 2006|11:08pm] I feel like a zombie. &$%*@!

[29 Oct 2006|02:40pm] Sooo recap of this week. thursday was TWWK. Good stuff. Friday I left for the Poconos. My hotel had Jones Soda, Pizza Hut, Starbucks, and an indoor waterpark. What else could you need? I basically stayed inside and watched horror movies all weekend and didn't talk to anyone really the whole time. I loveddd it. Today when we left it was snowing, which was crazy. My sister found and apartment in West Babylon. Talk about last minute. Either way, I coulnd't be happier. Oh, and my college applications are finished. Yeaaaaa that's it. &$%*@!

[25 Oct 2006|05:21pm] My sister did not get the appartment I was so sure she would. Just as I thought things were beginning to get better again, they just got worse. &$%*@!

[19 Oct 2006|10:25pm] Today has been something terrible or great, I haven't decided on which quite yet. Either way, I'm going back to the start again with everything and everyone I have ever crossed paths with. Things have gone terribly wrong and some changes need to be made before I loose my mind. &$%*@!

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